Diary entry. 17th August 2007

You came into my life, secretly I knew it was a start of a new me. I set myself 'sort of' free, to experience them butterflies that you aroused......I never wanted the feeling to end. Pardon me but what I really wanted was some adventure with this man who had a fire in his eyes....the man who made me feel things I didn't think I would ever feel.

But it turned out to be more than just an adventure....I fell in love with you. Your humour disarmed me, your straight forwardness and your pursuit for my heart...you simply blew me away!

Today I can only think of embracing you, loving you and dreaming about what lies ahead with you. I know am not blinded, I know I have found my match, a person I can spend my life with ad create a formidable partnership.

I understand my friends' concern about not finding a man from home but I wont try to convince them otherwise. I know you we shall be happy together and that we share the same yearning for a home.

Diary entry. 15th January 2007

God forbid, when I look at him and remember all he put me through, my anger and resentment for men seems to engulf me. Why would someone take advantage of my naïveté and good nature to inflict such emotional pain?

Its almost three years now since I left him.

I have moved on in more ways than one, but everytime I see him I wonder if I wot face the same ever again. I also ask myself how I could be so blinded not to see the looser in him. From our demeanor, my strides are noticeable.

The divorce is here, couldn't be more confident about how things shall turn out.

He says he doesn't want a divorce, that we can do better. I know better than to buy that. Faceless liar!!!