Insecure

Not the best thing to admit about oneself but that is what has been going on with me in the past weeks...and I loath the feeling.

So today
-am taking the concious decision to throw in the towel and make every effort to get rid of my insecurities, to find the me that was alien to insecurities.
-to forget events of my past that have dogged my confidence tanks(a worthless marriage)
-to face my fears( Falling in love and letting go)
-to know what I want and ask for it(to be happy)
-to talk and not make assumptions about situations and people(He doesn't have the intention to hurt me)
-not to be defeated.(Live life)

Different

Am currently raking my mind trying to understand why it would be such a big deal that I would opt for one that is not one of my kind and cause a stir. I am in love with a man from a foreign land.

Granted, there is the usual concern about your well being when the relationship ceases to be flowery and you are on the other side, away from your own.....actually thinking of it, thats really a reasonable concern. Apart from that, I think that is really it in as far as worrying about cross cultural relationships/marriages.

I have fallen in love with a man, a wonderful man!! But the mention of where he comes from gives some people the squints, comments such as why can't you get one of your own have arisen and here I am STILL raking my mind!! Whatever happened to going with the times, the power of love and embracing communities of the world?

Whatever!! Never felt this good before and I wont let this slip my fingers. Chance only visits once and am sure going to court it!! Have I mentioned that taking chances is my fourth name?

For a new love and doing what would be regarded as unconventional, CHEERS!!